explain it to ________

My long absence is unexplainable?

I’ve been through a lot of stress these past few months. Physically and emotionally I guess. Hehe I’m in a new address and the transfer was exhausting and I’m not sure if things are really going well.

Whenever I fail I always accept them even if the reason for my failure is invalid at times but no matter what it is I still want to hear from a certain official that I failed. I don’t want to hear it from others even from myself. I simply want to verify it from an official. I’ve failed this time and I’ve been through it very well. So now, what comes next? None other than the overused “Try Again”. Yes, I will try again. Failure should never be a hindrance for your aspirations, it is a message that says you can work harder. You can do better.

I think I am a person who is not good in explaining myself.  Who deserves to know the stories behind? None. Kidding.

Explaining. Something I believe I do not like. It’s not that I really don’t like it, people very dear to me are the only ones who deserve it. Individuals who saw me in all possible extremes of whatever attitude I have and still embraced me.

Explanations. I don’t need it. As much as I want to know the reasons, sometimes we don’t really need to know it. Emotions will stir up during justifications and it might bring such feeling that you will remember oh so clearly for a period of time. I know what you’re thinking and you’re right. I’m scared to feel it.

As they say, the truth will set you free but fate always has a way of bringing the answers you never asked for. And when it comes, it may be so unexpected but you will be surprised to realize that this time you are ready to hear it no matter what you might feel.

And after all the scary nights, the diversion of thoughts, the lonely days you can’t fake your smile, and all the activities you gave your energy just to stay positive and glad , you emerged a smarter, braver individual. I know I did.

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